One Response to “On the Job with Bipolar: Five-Part Series”

1. leah osowski on January 4th, 2010 3:44 am

   I am 24, I have been working since I was 13, babysitting, childhood jobs (mc-d,ice cream shop, panera), then after barely graduating, and completing a dental assisting course, i worked for 8months, then found a reason to quit and worked somewhere else for 1 1/2yrs, going to school part time the last 5 months of working then found another reason to quit everything, my bf or stress. i enjoyed partying and doing coke and smoking weed but i never had an addiction, just when it was around (which was always) i did it. i have compulsive eating,spending, stealing, lying and hypersex tendecies. i take most everything to the limit with no worry of consequences. which makes keeping a job very hard. i sabotage myself at every corner. i am intelligent and talented, i catch on to almost everything at an extremely fast rate.sports, music, art.i am an attention feind. if i cant get good attention i create bad situations. and i am incredibly obssessive and analytical and critical of myself. i feel like the more i learn about the disease the more hopeless and helpless i become. i was diagnosed a month ago, and i started on lexapro, lithium, xanax, seraquel, then they up’d my lexapro, lithium twice a day, kolopin twice a day,xanax as needed and serquel doubled at night. now i am taking lexapro 40mg, abilify, kolonopin, xanax, seraquel 300mg, depakote 1000mg. i feel better i guess, but i still get angry, anxious and depressed, its only been a month and i dont expect instant gratification, but i couldnt IMAGINE getting(and keeping) a job ANY time soon, i am applying for mental disability. there are days at a time when i cant even get myself to get out of bed. i want to be better for my son and husband and family, but i am not going to make myself be better if the treatments arent working. im seeing a MD, PD, Psycholo, Psychia. I need the help and want to be better. i am reading on the disease and want to learn as much as possible. but work especially something stressful would send me either into a sexually compulsive downspin with the a likely candidate i worked with or i would go into a manic attack and just stay in my bed for 3 days and change my phone number to let my job know i am not coming back. thanks for listening.

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