Comments for Bipolar Blog http://www.finkshrink.com/blog Information and support Sat, 04 Sep 2010 12:42:52 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.0.1 Comment on Bipolar Disorder: Setting Boundaries by Clay http://www.finkshrink.com/blog/marriage/bipolar-disorder-setting-boundaries.html/comment-page-1#comment-2043 Clay Sat, 04 Sep 2010 12:42:52 +0000 http://www.finkshrink.com/blog/?p=333#comment-2043 I've been reading over the back and forth of people with bipolar and without. I have bipolar and was just hospitalize and released a few days ago. I pitty my wife for what she went through, I had been off my meds for a few months and decided to go back on them my self instead of getting the start packs and doing it right. Well what I didn't know was that I also have a respitory infection. I was walking through the house I work in and it was like someone pulled a black curtain everything went dark I started sweating profusely. This was about 7:30am I started getting my head together at about 10:30am. I that time frame I couldn't tell you where I was or what I was doing. I ended up going to my in-laws house and had the same thing happen again but instead of blacking out for a few hours I blacked out at about 4:30pm and woke up two days later in the hospital with my dad sitting beside me. This was at about 8:00pm on the following Tuesday. He left and I tried to go back to sleep but couldn't get comfortable in the hospital bed. At Midnight a Sheriff's Deputy came to pick me up. I was handcuffed and shackle and transported two hours away from home to a hospital with a mental ward. I had no idea what had happened or what was going on. I had to stay there for two and a half days to be observed and court order to take my medicine and see a psychiatrist. Still not knowing for sure what happened until my family arrived and told me. You want to talk about scary. This had never happened before. When I called my wife the following Tuesday she didn't know where I was or what was going on the hospital kept giving her the HIPPA information protection spill. This was my wife who was there the whole time that I was in the first hospital. Well as for what happened. I was wondering around the house again blacked out. "The lights were on but no-one was home." I walked through out the house just saying "I don't understand", my wife kept trying to get me to lay down and I kept telling her I couldn't lay in the middle of the bed. She said she kept talking to me but I wasn't responding. Her and her brother finally got me into the car to take me to the hospital and they had to put the child locks on because I kept trying to get out of the car. When I got to the hospital I wondered down a back hallway and was cornered up by security. My wife said when she got around to where I was at the four security guards had me on the floor with my hands behind my head trying to restrain me. They finally got me on a gurney and sedated. The next day they were trying to put in a cathereder in to get a urine sample to see if I was on any drugs and it took about six people two of which were my mom and my wife to hold me down. They said I bit a deputy that was there in the next room picking someone up and heard the struggle and tried to help and I bit a nurse. Luckily since I wasn't of sound mind at the time, they didn't press charges. They finally sedated me again and when I woke up the next day is when my dad was there. I know understand what it's like to go through what others that I have talked to that have been through that have dealt with. Not only are your loved one at times scared to be around you but you feel bad because it's really out of your hand to at times. I have a good support group at church and one of my friends also has bipolar and went through a similar situation a few years ago. I know I'm going to catch hell from my doctor on Monday when I go to see him about not taking my meds, because my friend with bipolar really gave me grief for stopping my meds. It was because of the cost for the most part. I know and did know that I needed them. Oh by the way my wife also has clinical depression so she can sympothize to a certain lever with what I go through. I know how dangerous someone that is going through a manic attack can be both to there selves and to others. The care that the hospital staff gave me may have been rough but due to the scabs and cuts on me I know they were doing what they thought was right at the time and in the long run it's nothing that won't heal, compared to what I could have done to myself. The only real complaint I have is that they didn't keep my wife informed of what they were doing, why they were doing it, and where they sent me. Even the psychiatrist the I was ordered to go see, when we told her what happened said the way they kept things from my wife was not right. I have just chalked this up to: I need a durable power of attorney for my wife to get information and her one so I can get information and to stay on my meds and see a doctor when I'm sick. For those that don't have any mental health problems hang in there. Count the good things that are in your life, when things are spinning with your spouse it will only be for a short time, and things will work out. Remember everyone has there faults some have a diagnosis and a name and some don't. The ones that don't you have to worry about, because the one's that do have a name have been diagnosed and you or your spouse can get help. Some people just go undiagnosed and make everyone's life around them hard. Believe me I've had to live with a neighbor that has been married three times and divorced three times and is as mean as the day is long, and run off everyone around him but the people that are scared of him and he abuses them. At least my disease has a name and we can fix it. Well I've held you up long enough I have three beautiful kids to take care of and college classes to attend take care. May God bless you with a support group like mine, and many blessings. I’ve been reading over the back and forth of people with bipolar and without. I have bipolar and was just hospitalize and released a few days ago. I pitty my wife for what she went through, I had been off my meds for a few months and decided to go back on them my self instead of getting the start packs and doing it right. Well what I didn’t know was that I also have a respitory infection. I was walking through the house I work in and it was like someone pulled a black curtain everything went dark I started sweating profusely. This was about 7:30am I started getting my head together at about 10:30am. I that time frame I couldn’t tell you where I was or what I was doing. I ended up going to my in-laws house and had the same thing happen again but instead of blacking out for a few hours I blacked out at about 4:30pm and woke up two days later in the hospital with my dad sitting beside me. This was at about 8:00pm on the following Tuesday. He left and I tried to go back to sleep but couldn’t get comfortable in the hospital bed. At Midnight a Sheriff’s Deputy came to pick me up. I was handcuffed and shackle and transported two hours away from home to a hospital with a mental ward. I had no idea what had happened or what was going on. I had to stay there for two and a half days to be observed and court order to take my medicine and see a psychiatrist. Still not knowing for sure what happened until my family arrived and told me. You want to talk about scary. This had never happened before. When I called my wife the following Tuesday she didn’t know where I was or what was going on the hospital kept giving her the HIPPA information protection spill. This was my wife who was there the whole time that I was in the first hospital. Well as for what happened. I was wondering around the house again blacked out. “The lights were on but no-one was home.” I walked through out the house just saying “I don’t understand”, my wife kept trying to get me to lay down and I kept telling her I couldn’t lay in the middle of the bed. She said she kept talking to me but I wasn’t responding. Her and her brother finally got me into the car to take me to the hospital and they had to put the child locks on because I kept trying to get out of the car. When I got to the hospital I wondered down a back hallway and was cornered up by security. My wife said when she got around to where I was at the four security guards had me on the floor with my hands behind my head trying to restrain me. They finally got me on a gurney and sedated. The next day they were trying to put in a cathereder in to get a urine sample to see if I was on any drugs and it took about six people two of which were my mom and my wife to hold me down. They said I bit a deputy that was there in the next room picking someone up and heard the struggle and tried to help and I bit a nurse. Luckily since I wasn’t of sound mind at the time, they didn’t press charges. They finally sedated me again and when I woke up the next day is when my dad was there. I know understand what it’s like to go through what others that I have talked to that have been through that have dealt with. Not only are your loved one at times scared to be around you but you feel bad because it’s really out of your hand to at times. I have a good support group at church and one of my friends also has bipolar and went through a similar situation a few years ago. I know I’m going to catch hell from my doctor on Monday when I go to see him about not taking my meds, because my friend with bipolar really gave me grief for stopping my meds. It was because of the cost for the most part. I know and did know that I needed them. Oh by the way my wife also has clinical depression so she can sympothize to a certain lever with what I go through. I know how dangerous someone that is going through a manic attack can be both to there selves and to others. The care that the hospital staff gave me may have been rough but due to the scabs and cuts on me I know they were doing what they thought was right at the time and in the long run it’s nothing that won’t heal, compared to what I could have done to myself. The only real complaint I have is that they didn’t keep my wife informed of what they were doing, why they were doing it, and where they sent me. Even the psychiatrist the I was ordered to go see, when we told her what happened said the way they kept things from my wife was not right. I have just chalked this up to: I need a durable power of attorney for my wife to get information and her one so I can get information and to stay on my meds and see a doctor when I’m sick.
For those that don’t have any mental health problems hang in there. Count the good things that are in your life, when things are spinning with your spouse it will only be for a short time, and things will work out. Remember everyone has there faults some have a diagnosis and a name and some don’t. The ones that don’t you have to worry about, because the one’s that do have a name have been diagnosed and you or your spouse can get help. Some people just go undiagnosed and make everyone’s life around them hard. Believe me I’ve had to live with a neighbor that has been married three times and divorced three times and is as mean as the day is long, and run off everyone around him but the people that are scared of him and he abuses them. At least my disease has a name and we can fix it.
Well I’ve held you up long enough I have three beautiful kids to take care of and college classes to attend take care. May God bless you with a support group like mine, and many blessings.

]]> Comment on The Soloist: Review and Discussion by Online Tutoring,Home Tutor Delhi, Home Tutor Mumba http://www.finkshrink.com/blog/opinions/the-soloist-review-and-discussion.html/comment-page-1#comment-2042 Online Tutoring,Home Tutor Delhi, Home Tutor Mumba Fri, 27 Aug 2010 15:44:37 +0000 http://www.finkshrink.com/blog/?p=306#comment-2042 I have bipolar disorder. I hear sounds in my ear as if someone is talking I have bipolar disorder. I hear sounds in my ear as if someone is talking

]]> Comment on A Wife’s Story by Tara http://www.finkshrink.com/blog/bipolar-stories-and-insights/a-wifes-story/comment-page-2#comment-2040 Tara Sat, 21 Aug 2010 21:19:22 +0000 http://finkshrink.com/blog/bipolar-stories-and-insights/a-wifes-story#comment-2040 I am so touched and saddened to read all of your stories, which all sound so familiar to me. I also have been married to a BP and ADHD spouse for 14 years and we have 2 wonderful children. Our struggle began 7 years ago when my husband was first diagnosed. I am just so tired. I feel as though I have tried everything to "get him to see" what he's doing to our family with his behavior. Although he is on meds, he often explodes over little things which are insignificant, yells very hurtful and damaging things, blames the problems on me, tells me that bipolar is "made up" and has nothing to do with his rants and rages. I have felt very battered emotionally for a couple of years now. I have seen a counselor for myself who promptly stated that I had passed my threshold a long time ago. The problem is, my husband does not seem to care. I feel very upset and depressed after we argue because it is always bizarre and there is never any resolution. I have gotten very angry with him and threatened to leave so many times, which also follows bouts of his hurtful and damaging behavior. He seems to twist and distort everything, how arguments happen, what was said, and he forgets what he says. Now his latest thing is telling me that I need help for my anger and that I am the problem. It's very manipulative. I want to leave, even though I love my husband, but it is difficult because I'm a student and a mom with no income right now. Also, my children love their father and I worry about them. I just feel it has become impossible to have a normal relationship with him. He seems incapable or unwilling to talk through anything calmly, work on resolving the problems, seeking help for himself or with me, and staying in the present. I just don't understand how a marriage with someone like this is even possible, unless I'm willing to stay miserable. All my family lives so far away and I truly feel alone sometimes, although I know I am not! I would appreciate any support or insight. God Bless you all. I am so touched and saddened to read all of your stories, which all sound so familiar to me. I also have been married to a BP and ADHD spouse for 14 years and we have 2 wonderful children. Our struggle began 7 years ago when my husband was first diagnosed.

I am just so tired. I feel as though I have tried everything to “get him to see” what he’s doing to our family with his behavior. Although he is on meds, he often explodes over little things which are insignificant, yells very hurtful and damaging things, blames the problems on me, tells me that bipolar is “made up” and has nothing to do with his rants and rages.

I have felt very battered emotionally for a couple of years now. I have seen a counselor for myself who promptly stated that I had passed my threshold a long time ago. The problem is, my husband does not seem to care. I feel very upset and depressed after we argue because it is always bizarre and there is never any resolution. I have gotten very angry with him and threatened to leave so many times, which also follows bouts of his hurtful and damaging behavior. He seems to twist and distort everything, how arguments happen, what was said, and he forgets what he says. Now his latest thing is telling me that I need help for my anger and that I am the problem. It’s very manipulative.

I want to leave, even though I love my husband, but it is difficult because I’m a student and a mom with no income right now. Also, my children love their father and I worry about them. I just feel it has become impossible to have a normal relationship with him. He seems incapable or unwilling to talk through anything calmly, work on resolving the problems, seeking help for himself or with me, and staying in the present.

I just don’t understand how a marriage with someone like this is even possible, unless I’m willing to stay miserable.

All my family lives so far away and I truly feel alone sometimes, although I know I am not! I would appreciate any support or insight.

God Bless you all.

]]> Comment on Bipolar Extramarital Affair by Steph http://www.finkshrink.com/blog/bipolar-stories-and-insights/bipolar-extramarital-affair/comment-page-2#comment-2039 Steph Thu, 19 Aug 2010 04:16:55 +0000 http://finkshrink.com/blog/bipolar-stories-and-insights/bipolar-extramarital-affair#comment-2039 This evening my husband was admitted into the mental hospital for the second time in two weeks for trying to kill himself. We have been married for 10 years and I have been through an affair, anger, verbal abuse, and financial hardship. He spent 10 days in and got out last week. We have three children together ranging from 7 to 18 months. He was diagnosed with BP about 3 1/2 years ago. When he got home last week he was uncomfortable as was I but I expected this. Friday after picking the kids up I got home and he was totally strung out. He does not admit to taking any drugs but I found out that he was talking to one of the patients in the hospital that was an admitted drug dealer (prescription drugs). Saturday I caught him in a lie about talking to another woman, another patient he met. I tried to speak to him and let him and let him know that we needed to move forward and not start old habits. Yes, I gave him a choice to seriously try at staying well. He left and moved in with his mother statng he cannot handle reality. He has been gone since Saturday and has not talked to his kids once. His mom called me today to tell me there was something wrong he was stoned out of his mind and they could not get him to respond. He finally came around and she noticed he had tried to cut himslef again. Needless to say they took him to the ER. On the way there he began deleting all of his emails and text messages. He rode with our pastor and our pastor told me he was texting a women and immediately deleting the messages the entire way to the hospital. Not once did he call or text me on his way there. There is no doubt in our mind he was high on something they are going to do a drug test on him. I love this man and it makes me so sick to think of who has become.he was a great person when I met him, he has been a great father and now he is just a sad human being. I emailed the lady he was talking to and tried to confront her she flipped out on me and will not return anymore messages. Yes there was something going on, maybe not sexual but none the less inapropriate. I tried talking to him before they admitted hi and he blamed me for what he had done. I know better but my heart hurts. I feel absoutley sick to my stomach and am lost. I am exhausted and tired. How do I go on. I have three small children, currently am working two jobs (he lost his job about two months ago) and now have to worry if he will get out and want to love us or leave. I am so broken. I knew that it would be hard with the BP disease but how much can one take. I know that God has provided for me and my kids, I pray that my Hubby is not so lost that he can't find his way back to Christ and his family. This evening my husband was admitted into the mental hospital for the second time in two weeks for trying to kill himself. We have been married for 10 years and I have been through an affair, anger, verbal abuse, and financial hardship. He spent 10 days in and got out last week. We have three children together ranging from 7 to 18 months. He was diagnosed with BP about 3 1/2 years ago. When he got home last week he was uncomfortable as was I but I expected this. Friday after picking the kids up I got home and he was totally strung out. He does not admit to taking any drugs but I found out that he was talking to one of the patients in the hospital that was an admitted drug dealer (prescription drugs). Saturday I caught him in a lie about talking to another woman, another patient he met. I tried to speak to him and let him and let him know that we needed to move forward and not start old habits. Yes, I gave him a choice to seriously try at staying well. He left and moved in with his mother statng he cannot handle reality. He has been gone since Saturday and has not talked to his kids once. His mom called me today to tell me there was something wrong he was stoned out of his mind and they could not get him to respond. He finally came around and she noticed he had tried to cut himslef again. Needless to say they took him to the ER. On the way there he began deleting all of his emails and text messages. He rode with our pastor and our pastor told me he was texting a women and immediately deleting the messages the entire way to the hospital. Not once did he call or text me on his way there. There is no doubt in our mind he was high on something they are going to do a drug test on him. I love this man and it makes me so sick to think of who has become.he was a great person when I met him, he has been a great father and now he is just a sad human being. I emailed the lady he was talking to and tried to confront her she flipped out on me and will not return anymore messages. Yes there was something going on, maybe not sexual but none the less inapropriate. I tried talking to him before they admitted hi
and he blamed me for what he had done. I know better but my heart hurts. I feel absoutley sick to my stomach and am lost. I am exhausted and tired. How do I go on. I have three small children, currently am working two jobs (he lost his job about two months ago) and now have to worry if he will get out and want to love us or leave. I am so broken. I knew that it would be hard with the BP disease but how much can one take. I know that God has provided for me and my kids, I pray that my Hubby is not so lost that he can’t find his way back to Christ and his family.

]]> Comment on Tragedy of Errors by laura http://www.finkshrink.com/blog/relationships/tragedy-of-errors.html/comment-page-1#comment-2037 laura Mon, 16 Aug 2010 17:33:14 +0000 http://www.finkshrink.com/blog/?p=319#comment-2037 When I was having a manic attack I took the strongest Ambien CR every 6 hours for a couple of days and did not sleep at all. Nothing works in that state of mind. Now I'm on Seroquel and I sleep very well. When I was having a manic attack I took the strongest Ambien CR every 6 hours for a couple of days and did not sleep at all. Nothing works in that state of mind. Now I’m on Seroquel and I sleep very well.

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