Samantha

Posted September 12, 2011

I was diagnosed with bipolar when I was 14. I was depressed and cutting a lot, so I was sent to a hospital. They put me on an anti-depressant that made me so manic I didn’t sleep for days. When I got home I got so bad I tried committing suicide but didn’t succeed thank god.

I started using a lot of drugs and cutting even more just trying to calm my anxiety. Finally my doctor realized something else was wrong. He put me on a mood stabilizer and it seemed to help. I ended up getting put in the hospital again 3 more times up until I was 16. We finally found a mix of medicines that worked.

At 17 I was off all illegal drugs and doing really well. I met my amazing other half who I’m still with to this day, who is patient and kind and understands me. When I turned 18 I stopped all my medication. I felt like I didn’t need them anymore.

I’m now 22 and decided it was time that I get back on them. I’ve been manic and it was getting out of control. I’ve been on my new meds for about a month now. But I’m just not sure. I think I’m just scared. (I never liked being on anything.) If anyone has any advice it would be appreciated. My anxiety is through the roof. Thanks all.

Samantha

One Response to “Samantha”

  1. ML on October 7th, 2011 5:11 pm

    Hi Sam

    I am 31 and can relate to so much. I used so many drugs just to feel better but unlike you it took me until I was 30 to get off them. I am still getting my meds regulated but I am starting to feel better! Medicine works, stay on it. I’m finally realizing it. Thank god it wasn’t too late!

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