You say some hopeful things. Your kids are grown, your second husband seems to still love you and is trying to learn more, and you’re on meds (hopefully something that is helping). If you’re having trouble paying for the meds, I wonder if Partnership for Prescription Assistance could help – it’s that free medication group that Montel Williams promotes. If not, sometimes doctors can provide sufficient “samples” to get you through.

Not wanting to take your meds is pretty common, but just about everyone who knows anything about BP will tell you that’s the most important step. As my wife was being released from the hospital, the one thing the doctor said was, “Keep taking your medications.”