I’ve read some of what you’ve written and I so relate. I’m bipolar and schizophrenic and have suffered with it for years. I actually was only diagnosed three years ago because I just never believed that there was something wrong with me.

I literally cannot tell you my story in this setting. It is so long and so difficult. For instance, I’ve been married 6 times, drug and alcohol abuse, child sexual abuse as a small boy, spent every dollar crazily, completely and totally sexually promiscuous, to the extreme, suicidal.

I have a blog and if and when you have time I’d love for you to take a look at it. It’s a new blog – just started it.

I don’t try to characterize the bipolar condition, I tell my history and my feelings on a daily basis. I go into the history because if one is perceptive he or she will realize how my mental problems have affected me. I try hard to accept the responsibility of my own actions but my life has been so traumatic, I just run out of energy. I have so many questions about why I am the way I am; I don’t understand why I think the way I do; I don’t understand why there can be two totally different people in my mind. I just can’t understand what has happened.

I have been on meds for three years but the problems haven’t gone away.

If you visit my blog, you will read some pretty sordid details. But I’m just telling it like it’s been.

My website is http://www.bipolarmale.com

Take care and God bless,

TJ